Road Blogger

“Excess on occasion is exhilarating. It prevents moderation from acquiring the deadening effect of a habit.” Somerset Maugham.

Well I partied in excess in Atlanta! I missed the boring opening session of this continuing education conference I attended. Henson my boss was annoyed at my tardiness so I apologized for being late. I don’t apologize for the partying and I certainly made the right decision to sleep in. I ate and drank and engaged with work people. With the exception of my new friends from New Orleans who were grateful for our help, I feel bored.

Perhaps I need some rest from something? I hope this is short term but still, it’s having the same feeling of being deadened in my habits as Somerset has quoted. I don’t know what that has been about. A friend once told me that “boredom is really not talking about the things that need to be talked about.” I need to look at this. Perhaps too much work (job) and reflection (personal) has made me an uninteresting person in my day to day activities. It’s odd because it feels as if I’m isolating myself from human beings. Also, I’ve been craving the intimacy of touch and real conversation in the moment. At the same time, I am unwilling to “act out” and get involved with the crazies that I easily attract. It’s time to do something different that excites a passionate response. A good indicator will be my date with Regina. She is a connector and teaches communication and if this feeling persists it looks like it’s time to visit Garry my shrink. I’ve got to pay attention to this and hope that it doesn’t persist because I don’t want to live a deadened life.